Monday, February 28, 2005
Starting of The Sleepless Nights/Intermittent Sleeps
Sat is fun. When Fun is over, the battle starts. Or u call that hell... or miserable state.... Sunday/Yesterday, I was trying to do my design work. heehee, i did went to watch 2 discs of Naruto to quence my curiosity of cos, before I went back to work. As soon as I realised it was about 1am and I fell asleep on the sofa, with my hp radio on at my ears. Time and time again, I was dragged in and out of the sleep due to my drowning perseverence of getting up to get my design done. Yet my zzz monster pulls me down to sleep. That intermittent in and out of sleep, open and closing eyes, with every waking seconds of horror to realise design incomplete, den back to the relunctance doze. This is horrible. Even my sis and mum got impatient of waking me up all the time. I was like in a desert.... losing strength yet a slavemaster behind whipping me to go on. Haiz.... that kind of feeling aint good..... really aint good. So Mon morning comes, and I haf to face the horror of incomplete work. Due to the improper sleep, I felt sick... not really sick in terms of fever or wat. But I can feel my head spinning abit or more of feeling so light, as if floating. Dragging my foot and with blood losing from my face, resulting in ghostly white look, den with my hair straight down and walking with that face of mine, I wonder what ppl on the streets will think...
I rushed back home after the 2 hours USP lessons to do more of my design.... I ended up asleep... and mum woke me up and forced me to have lunch... that is almost 3:30pm already. So in the end I was very very late for the design class. Once I reached there, the teacher was about to leave but luckily he didnt get to see everyone today, and so the rest had to return tomolo... ok, so tonight is another drilling night. Another depressing thing is after i had my dinner, I went to weigh myself and horrified that i gained 2.5 to 3 kg from my original 50..... ok, i admit I am already 51.5 after that saturday bdae thingy cos so much dessert given to me. What did I do? I didnt eat alot after that wat... alamak. Heck ar! (i dun believe my dinner added to the 1 kg lor)
Gosh... I still feel floating/dreamy... I hope I can stay awake tonight. I hate that waking and dozing moments. It is like ppl stabbing u and u feel like dying but not yet dying.... ok, think enuff of my horrible description.
I remembered I had seen one Japanese shop in Parco Bugis. It sold truly Jap stuff, inclusive of Kimono!! and they had these white bandages/cloths to tie on the forehead, with words like "work hard" and "jia you" in japanese (katakana) printed on the cloths. Haha u remember Jap ppl, esp the comic characters, like to haf those stuff on the head while they ganbatte? yea.... cool huh.... But i think if i wear that, I'll look like a freak... haha~ ok lar.... back to work....
Sunday, February 27, 2005
Sentosa Outing!!!
Yea!! With my JC classmates! This morning it actually rained then the rain stopped with cloudy sky, hence the sun was not scorching. juz nice for sentosa outing! I sort of lagging in my packing... ended up the rest of them waited for me for an hour before I turned up at the HarbourFront Centre's Foodcourt! Paiseh! So sorry!
The usual guys and yock were already there and yock gave me chocolates with cat designs!!! Awww~~~ I ate one there.... biting off its ears first, den the eyes... and the whole head and finally..... ok ok. Very nice~~ Yock had to celebrate her mum's bdae so she had to go off after the lunch. The rest of us set off to Sentosa at ard 3pm. We played Vball~~~ Mei and Jay joined us 1 hour later. Our arms got red and swollen... For me, My right hand/arm are shaking still... now cant type smoothly oso.... but better than writing... lucky most of my homework used computers... My arms have red dots now lor.....can feel the bones inside bruised. but aint big deal lar~
Sand kept getting into my eyes.... very terrible... The guys (ahba, bro, yk, wm, wk,gabz and jason) were always so energetic, playing funny movements with kicks and diving and dunno watever. Gals there were only me and mei~ Joven had sudden interview call so she rushed back home to prepare for the immediate interview... poot thing! Finally 6 plus and we stopped playing. And we started the food fest! Yk brought pizzas, some got drinks, sel got jellies, me brought 4 cans of fruits cocktail! Ahhhh~~~~ so delicious. Meanwhile took a few photos... :
See the cloudy sky....
The bench with us eating....
Hmm the sky got so dark that we worried it might rain. So we hurried to pack up and bathe.... We took a long time to queue.... esp. the gals' toilet. So some of the guys went to play soccer etc and ate the food.
Finally I am the last to finish bathing. We reached a big pavilion to put our food there and finished up the cocktail and bottled drinks.
Finally we reached Harbourfront Centre. I decided the place to be at PastaMania.... Joven came finally~~~ haha. Venki and Mich could not make it. One overslept, the other i think got work to do. Haiz, no choice lor~~ Anway after meal we chatted quite some time and realised alot of ppl 'disappeared', left weikun and yk to tok to me. The whole night weikun had been very disturbing! Also some of them started to mention my famous lines I created last time... Once again my 'reputation' gone again hahaa~~~
Oki~~ after some time everyone returned and they presented me some cheese cream cake! here's the full photo!
Mei gave me presents, jov gave me an additional letter - "love letter" hahaha!! And ah ba rep the rest and gave me the class present. wahwah... den the Pastamania ppl gave me a Chocolate Mousse as a complimentary thingy for bdae ppl. Wah!! so many things to eat! and many things to do * stress*. I opened mei's present and yea! It's a bag and a towel! I need a small bag cos sometimes I dun need to carry so much things ... been looking ard for some time so finally!!! The towel is very sweet too!! Here's the photo~~
After that I went to eat that cheese cream cake... wah very full~~ I started to eat the choc mousse when my dear impatient frens pressed me to guess and open the class present. And the whole process of opening this present is RECORDED in VIDEO!!!!! haha, who wans then tell me ar. Guess wat's the present? A DKNY watch~ very stylish, heard that my Ah ba choose the design one~~ hahaa~~
Then under request, I wore the watch immediately~~ ahaha, den continued to finish the rest of my desert~! Wah so full~~~ happy!
Finally, after some time we went home~~ And now I got a few tots to say:
I wanna thank my JC frens for giving me a memorable 21st bdae celebration besides the archi one. I really feel very fortunate to have all of u and u ppl really spice up my life. Thank you! Hope we'll continue like this or closer still in the many years to come! I really like ur presence and that's y I ask u all to go sentosa etc. Sorry to make u all play Vball and got all the red painful arms. Haha sel got 2 hours sleep yesterday... mei was piaing work until the time before she came. Hhaha, thanks for making time out for me!!
Saturday, February 26, 2005
Howl's Moving Castle~~
Today is considered the sch reopening after term break. yes, WHAT BREAK!? when i had crit on monday, studio on thurs, projects on tues and wed. Hey, come on... that was break meh....
Anyway, I still faced today with chirpy mood... yup~ becos I was going to watch the movie "Howl's Moving Castle" with sis after school, and ah ba and YK were coming along as well. Oh yes, I remembered to wear the necklace and perfume... becos got ppl wanted to INSPECT me in sch today to make sure i got wear them... haha... *stress* But when I reached sch, there were some guys who had perfume on that were super strong lor... so.....
Straight 4 hours of lectures were tiring, but mood was still happy. I think it makes alot of difference when u haf ur close frens ard. I am grateful. So after sch, I went NTUC straight to buy 4 cans of fruits cocktail for Sentosa outing tml (Sat). Xh and Yk juz came in time to help me decide what to buy and carry them for me all the way haha.... Sis juz came too and she bought the tickets... We had dinner at KFC which was relocated on the opposite side of the rd from Empress. We got Theatre 3 to watch the movie.... Now i know why ppl say Eng Wah in Clementi is lousy when I strongly disagree cos all the times I went was really nice and clean! Now i realised this: There are 3 theatres. The one I always went to is Theatre 1 which is pretty good with red cushioned chairs and clean floor, big and clear screen etc. It is THEATRE 3 THAT SUX. The screen abit blur.... n got little dots flicking... like watching old movie. The worse is halfway thru the show, it seemed that the whole nest of hungry mosquitoes found our existence and started feeding on us... U can feel the needles piercing u every part of ur flesh and u cant keep slapping them in cinema.... my sis got the most bites.... scary.... Now I know muz avoid Theatre 3 next time. Oh realised that my ahba has the same blood type, AB+, as me... ok, so it confirms that i am his 'daughter'. ok lar, the show ended at 9:15pm... 2 hrs... and it's nice! I wont spoil the show here. Sis treated my frens to the show and we bid farewell.
ok.... though I haf lots of work to do, I shld look forward to sentosa outing later!! Hope i dun return as a roasted bird.
Wednesday, February 23, 2005
My 21st bdae!!! Alot of tots and things to say.
I have lots of things to say... and wanna update wat happen for the past few days. I hope my JC and Archi, (esp the Archi ppl) will really read this entry.
I shall start from friday.... At that time I juz finished the Graphite poster.... already lack of sleep... den immediately haf to rush the stuff for interim crit... and I really mean start from the scratch and head..... so I was behind everyone terribly... i pia until sunday lor... crit is on Monday.... The whole process is hair-tearing... i was using this 3d program to do my 3d models.... and it is so sucky!!! Alot of errors! It doesnt work the way u wan to sometimes... and it kept having illegal operation! and it oso hanged time and time again before the screen active again. The 3 days was really drilling me to madness and I really wana bang wall... and when the clock strike 12 to mark the start of 20th feb, alot of msn msg and smses came in to wish me happy bdae... At that moment I was really close to tears.... it is like "ppl come to bring warmth and coal to you during winter" that type of thing... so touched... and it brightened my mood. so over the whole sunday , I got many smses, from JC frens and Archi frens, USP, Anime etc etc... it is the bdae that i got the most number of wishes ... and i got from many unexpected ppl and felt that it is really amazing. haha~~ Can u imagine the times when u sooo upset then got little things that cheer u up...
Den finally monday came, I was rushing my presentation in the morning and my dad juz passed me a card sent to me via the air.... wah, another surprise~ haha becos of all of u, u made my life easier and the dark moments brighter... thank u!
Crit finally came... I was 1/2 hr late heehee.... I was the 2nd last to go.... I wasnt happy abt my work becos i still cannot get my design form out whereas the other had... but then i dunno what's got into me and I juz started yakkatiyak with super loud voice and sounded so energetic... with laughter somemore... aiyo... den the whole crit sounded funny and relaxed... ok, so i feel better la... I prevented a tragedy from happening. or maybe i juz wanna make it a happy thing since everyone was tired and sian at that time my turn came.... it was after 4 hours before i got my turn lor. William got me a set of One Piece Figurines~~~ hahaa last year was snoppy collection~ i wonder how come he got so many figurines one hahaa... den Jocelyn gave me perlini stuff, and the amazing thing is she using a Jap handkercheif to make the box like a cute japanese mini bento and added a ladybird clip!! So xi xin!!! She's really good at making gifts sia~~~ that effort is really touching~ After the crit ended and everyone left, I met up with 2 anime frens and they gave me presents!! yea~~ ooo, 2 gifts... One is this Limited Edition Perfume from Bodyshop... Actually it is like many containers of different flavours and u mix any 2 of them to create ur own scent!! wah like crayons mixing colours but this is in liquid lar... And the 2nd one is an illustrated book, the drawings all cute cute de!! heee~~ den we 3 went to Holland V to eat dinner at Coffee Bean, chatted a while and walked around the place cos shilei never come to HV before~~ hahaa
Ok finally I decided the time and place for the dinner on tues (today)... We got rid of the KTV idea, cos some ppl haf projects to do at sch etc... awww~~ Anyway i ate too much heaty stuff when i piaing my work until throat not that good. Hmm U know wat, I gained back the 1.5 kg!!! urgh!!! i'm really gone case liao... need more jogging!!!
Tues morning I was late for project meeting.... overslept. last night after i bathed and switched on laptop to write my blog, I juz concussed and dunno wat happen, ended up on my bed... mum called me in the late morning and I even asked her wat day is today............... seee, is that really bad?? den she said I told her b4 I need to go sch at 11am... I looked at the clock.... OPS....
For the Project,We discussed den when to visit the site we working one... climbed alot of staircases of hostels until wanna die hahaha... good exercise. After that we returned to studio to do own things... finally ard 5 plus guoyi they all came in to tell us to set off to orchard.... heehee...
At Marche, we ate and joked around... ard 20 ppl came.... then finally we got the cake and sang song.... oh yes i haf photos to show u all later. They took down videos of the process lor!! so funny to see my own self. Ok, the PRESENT time.... I got the list of ppl who shared the presents.... 30 plus ppl!!!! that means 30% of the Archi Cohort!!!! Omg..... so amazing... ok... open present.... Got 2.... First, it is a SK necklance!! OMG, i too shocked and happy until i dunno wat reaction to give... I am already very dreamy.... Den the next one is... ANNA SUI perfume!!!! Omg, another shock...... but then my facial expression like not as emotional as Ailing wanna see becos she kept thinking I might not like the presents... But in fact I am too happy! She tot i would moved to tears but I didnt... I moved to tears inside my heart.... I dun wan to let ppl see me cry again lor... I am too hyper at that time to cry lar.... I cried too many times since last sem, and I promised myself not to do that again becos I dun wanna mislead ppl thinking that I am a crybaby or wat... Actually when ppl give me expensive or exquite stuff tt i like, the first impression on my face like not as 'dramatic' as the rest wana see... like me moved to tears and all.... but becos i am too floating in my head, too dreamy liao, so i dun haf that expression... this often makes ppl think i dun like.... it also happened last time in JC2 when my class gave me 2 boxes of 3d Jigsaw puzzle of 2 famous buildings. I oso too shocked to give any dramatic effects.... So similarly, this case is oso liddat. But once I reached home, I reveal my 'drama' self more.... I was like.... "is this real" and "OMG OMG!", and finally when I calm down, not hyper liao, then started to think of things and observing the presents... I may juz tear etc... So my point is.... Pls do not think I dun like the presents if my reaction not as dramatic as u wanna see.... it's juz too shock and hyper at tat time that I cannot calm down and tear.... haha, so pls dun misunderstand me ok~~~
Yea, now I have an offical necklace to wear to sch most of the time... usually i dun wear necklace becos my hair always kenna got caught by it.... but this one doesnt!! So I am relieved and yea, encouraged to wear! Yes ailing, I will be SHOWING OFF the necklace now!! SK one somemore! *shrieks* hahah~~ and to tell u the truth, i do wear perfume one, but i used the freshener instead cos perfume abit hard to choose and all. and yea!! Now i have an official one! with a longlasting good smell!! heehee~~~ oh dear, I'll be fighting with chris in who have the higher density of smell liao.....haha kidding lar.... Ailing, juz wanna assure u that u got the right gifts and I do wanna show them off!! I wanna thank u and all of u who came in making my bdae celebration so memorable one... very touched.Ur presence and the wishes are so warming. Before my bdae, I keep thinking my 21st one will be so damn boring becos i cant have big invitation to some catering or wat.... but now it proved that this is so much fun too!And turned out so happy~ It is like the approach to the bdae and the day itself is still sian sian becos of work, and the fun part is after the actual bdae!!! Yea, still have JC sentosa outing one! heehee!!! so excited!(PS: when I was bathing, I realised I got slight nose bleed... haha after all the junk food and cakes for the whole week...too heaty)
Ok I have some tots here before I am showing the photos.... Those who wan to see the videos muz ask me to send to u. Ok my tots.... basically i say them in the previous sections liao... Juz wanna add simply that I have been experiencing extremes... One point of time, I can experiencing the vary dark moments of time in my life , getting sooo upset at stuff and getting troubled... and another moment or events in my life i can get sooooo happy and super hyper one.... I juz feel that I have experienced the extreme sad and happy things in my life. And I wonder how come I get to have emotions so strong all the time. extreme sad and extreme happiness... not much middle middle? hmm.... haiz... like this can get old fast leh... according to Xiao Long Nu in the Condor Heros hahaha.... okok.... i get to taste the bitter and sweetness in my life... so fulfilling hor.... ok lar, enuff liao... time to show PHOTOS!!!!! yea~~~
Ok, this is the Full photo of everyone present on tues night at Marche.
Ok, now a few of the gals for the girls' photo .... ops... william is inside.... too bad.... who tell him to sit beside danette hahaa~~~be a part of the sisters gang.
Ahh~~ the cutting cake time... And I take alot of blows to blow out the candles.... even though the candles are the normal type... but i still suspect one of them is not leh...... the video will show the whole process...
Ok, this is the SK necklace but i think too small to see so i took another photo.... Ailing wanna SABO me by asking QingXiong (a guy of cos) to put the necklace for me... den change target to Kexiang and Yisu. Wah kaoz, I die die oso refuse hahaha~~~ they wanna spice up the programme sia... danette even suggesting to get me to drink and get drunk so one guy can send me home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Uso!!! No way~~~~~
ok... finally this is the ANNA SUI perfume. The bottle is pretty unique with floral design and it looks like a bag! hahahaahaaaa
heehee~~ that's all!!!! Thanks for everyone to make my 21st bdae special !!!! Really touched!!! >.<
ps: and more to come still!! wah my bdae last year stretch over 3 days. Now mine is celebrated over 2 and half days but over a whole week!! yea!!!
Friday, February 18, 2005
Quiz review+ issues abt me....
Ahaha, alot of ppl beat me in doing this... esp jov and ed... ok so now my turn....
oh yes b4 i start, i did the OS quiz in mich blog, abt wat OS are u according to ur personality. My results is:
Which OS are You?hahaha~~~
Red Hat Linux..... i only heard of Linux but not RED HAT one..... hmm
Anyway abt the quiz thingy... haha i have 5 ppl who pass and 2 who are near passing. hmm is mine really freefrag?? hmm....
As I said before that I am one who have genuine and fake blur mixed together until I myself feel very confused abt myself. I dunno if I am getting more complicated or I am losing myself haha~ I am indeed difficult to be maintained.... haha~ I also think that alot of people will not know what is going on in my mind... (like ed said abt himself)... and yes i have the animated expressions and blur look and the hysterical shock look most of the time. Some ppl even say that they wanna tease me to see wat animated expressions I will give cos I always have alot of reactions.... ok lar, when i am in the 'bright' self, i am hippy and happy... but u will not find those when i am in the dark mood... All u see is scary black face.... ahaha.... And so, becos i seem to be showing how i feel at that time, I seemed EASY TO READ. However if i switch on my role as an actress, ppl only read from my SURFACE cos I will be hiding the truth. Like my anime fren said... he couldnt believe I was having depression becos I was always smiling and laffing in front of them... the things i say and behaved etc..... and alot of other things he doesnt expect too.... ok, someone acknowledged my acting skills liao.... i muz say his acting oso power wat. heehee...
Second thing i wanna add is.... I only turn 'hysterical' and tensed when I feel HELPLESS and LOST. And the reaction can be very great depending on how great that sense of helplessness. This all goes back to sec 3... Long story... shant say it here... no point la hahaha.... so u see me getting damn stressed up when I am lost on the roads. yup anything that makes me feel helpless and lost will drive me nuts. Hate that feelings of being lost. Sense of fear aroused from these too.
QUIZ:
First qn.... abt the dark self one.... i think becos of my depression and troubles going on last time, many of u will tend to think 'wanting to die' is the correct one. Ok la, i dun blame u all choosing that but hey! I treasure my life alot actually.... Anyway, why is the answer the jappy rock singer? haha... well, besides the dying or not dying thing, I would say the 'dark' self is more of bursting power in terms of chaos and madness. Getting wild and all... so such power can be satisfied via the singing. Imagine wearing all black or hippy and jappy, standing on the stage and yelling at the mike. quite stress-relieving isnt it!? hahaha~~ Meanwhile the bright side prefer to stay in the snow-white lands or gardens that carry tranquility and peace. Elegance. Imagine wearing light flowing clothing and walking barefooted on the meadows or thru wheat fields... den running ur fingers thru them as u walk.... And walking on pebbles of rivers... hopping and dancing on the waters... things are so light and faerie..... oh paradise~~
hmm I cant remember the sequence of every question. so here let me touch on the sports... Actually I sux at stamina. In pri3, I was last in a running event... Later I took up swimming. I failed at intermediate lvl... lack of stamina. So mum signed me up with a private coach who taught a small class of boys. yes, I was the only gal there then. So wat. I worked hard and coach trained me every saturday until I reach gold standard. I love to swim... Once I was swimming and observing the patterns reflected on the floor of the pool. I see my own shadow on the floor with the bright rippling patterns. Sounds are blocked off while u are in water too. So when I swim, I look at my own shadow, observing how i swim.. and the whole image is so dreamy and peaceful... as though i have freedom... away from the chaos... After these 3 years, my stamina shot up so when I was P6, I took alot of running events for the sports' day. Long distance becomes one of my forte. It continued until sec 2. Sec 3 i became more lazy... haha. so my stamina started to fall until now and still falling i think... haiz... den lastly i took up V-ball. less tiring ball game and fun in strategies and tactics. I believe some choose this option since most of the time I was grumbling to play this game than swimming. well, cos swimming more troublesome but that doesn't mean it isn't my fav.
Hmm abt the studies b4 architecture... hhaaha becos of so many art fields I am involved in, many ppl give different answers!! haha ok, to clear things up.... I am first involved in fine arts becos of AEP in sec sch... but at the same time I was in love with comics and drawing them. In fact my first career goal made is to become a comic book artist. Even tried to publish stories with a few other partners. Den after AEP, I was on my own... and I took up Graphics designing myself.... I know that comic artist is hard in singapore so I make it more like hobby.... so I wanted graphics designing as my studies cum career. I prepared my Fine Arts portfolio etc after JC graduation to go for the UK interview. The teacher actually agreed to let me in even though I dun have my A Levels Art..... I shld be so grateful to him. But when the letter of offer came, I still could not get enuff funds... that time dun haf relevant scholarships for this course oso... so I have to give it up myself. so I treat graphic designing as side job or freelancing job. So I got into Archi finally to make more constructive art and for the society. haha.... wat a long journey I already have... *tired*
Ok... some ppl tot i eat when I stressed up.... aahaha... but the tricky part is.. not when I stressed up, but when I work. To calm myself down, I like to look out my window and feel the breeze embracing me. I like the smell of the wind especially when it is about to rain. got the smell of fresh soil... den at night oso.... i see faraway lightings of the keppel shipyard and buildings faraway.... it makes me feel dreamy... and quietens me down.... awakening that peaceful self....
oh finally the music... becos of my 2 personalities, I like alot of music, different types. those I listed are my favs.. but of cos new age+vocal are still the best. They stir the peaceful self in me oso. alot of ppl choose jap ones too.... becos of my love for animes... well... they are nice but can be appreciated fully if I can understand the language. yep... should be all I wanna say.... Thanks to all of u who tried the quiz!
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
More Valentine Stuff!!
Yoz!!! I got two more Vdae prezzies!!! ahaaa and an unofficial one!!! haha ... yes yes? What are u thinking? ok la, they are frenship prezzies lar... Danette gave each of us a little cute box of MnM-like choclates, den william gave us heart-jellies. Den alot of archi ppl gathered in the non-dds studio to 'Lao Yu Sheng' den celebrate kx's belated bdae (again). I was eating at the fish floss that yuxun bought instead of the proper yusheng... ok lar, got eat abit of the squarish crackers... I feasted on the floss so much that in the end yx juz gave the whole bottle to me... whahahahaa~~~ that makes the 'third' present. hahaha~~~ bu hao yi si....
After all these celebrations, I went home straight to do graphite poster. by hook or by crook MUZ finish today... Hey last night I heard 933 introducing that NTU got sch of Art liao leh... all the animation, multimedia, video and graphics design.... wat the..... but i dunno if the quality is as good as the poly yet...
OH YES! Now, for the
more IMPT thing... Last night I remembered that I did a
3-page short comic story on Valentine's Day long time ago before. Think I did at ard late sec 4 to early JC time. I did it to send to the newspaper LianHeZaoBao's comic section again after my first published 3-page story, but by the time I finished this 2nd one, the thing is over liao. So wat a waste.... It is about Xmas cum Vday.... but anyway juz enjoy bah~~ Since it is quite an early-middle work, pls forgive my quality of work. Thanks! Here's the link:
Pg1-3:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v118/North_Swallow/Blogspot/vdaypg1.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v118/North_Swallow/Blogspot/vdaypg2.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v118/North_Swallow/Blogspot/vdaypg3.jpg
Sunday, February 13, 2005
Advanced gift~
hehe.... how's the quiz? tsk tsk.... i can see wat u all put.... ok... after some time i will post the correct answers.... and u all will huang3 ran2 da4 wu4.
hmm today I went to visit ex-tutor's house with my ex-studiomates. I was late...overslept, damn paiseh lar. And becos of the rushing, I never bring oranges etc..... even more paiseh. damn....hhaha. We got to choose ang baos, some got sweets, some got a few dollars. me--> $2. Later, we celebrated Kx's belated bdae with a cake... haha.... Finally we went to a nearby hawker centre to haf a late late lunch... We ate til 5 plus lor.... chatted alot... finally we bid farewell and headed home/separate ways... I met up with a fren in Clementi who had baked many cookies and many chocolates to give me as frenship gift for Vday. So nice of him~ He was experimenting for days i think...
I reached home and opened the choc box.. wah sey... the chocs are so nice lor~ I really feel ashamed at myself... i cant do all these... think the world abit diff now... at least for me ar... haha.. as in guys doing all these and gals lousy at all these... but i do know some of my gal frens are good at cooking... juz that not alot of them. Anyway all of the choc taste really good. Many diff flavours.... I ate one with bailey (liqour), but when I held it too long, it would melt so much and drip on the table. That's the flaw that he mentioned. Well I guess if he solved that problem, he can go open shop liao lar.... Here, wanna thank him for being such a nice fren~ very xi xin in the packaging and all . thanks!! Got chance i shall bake something too!~ haha... but i think when i do liao sure lose face.... cannot compare to his quality ones... *ashamed ashamed* But I think my cookies are much better than b4... got a few praises here and there... enuff to comfort me abit... Come to think of it... I think this is my First Vday/Friendshipday present (though an advanced one). I really appreciate it alot. Thanks! ^_^
Yea... finally I am back to my 50kg.... and still I am urging to eat all the cookies and goodies etc... hhaha this CNY = eating festival for me instead. ok think i better study for tml's test le.... Happy Vday to all tml! Those got programs, good for u!!
Saturday, February 12, 2005
Quiz!
This is my SECOND POST for today!
Yup... jov and ed each haf one liao, now my turn... If i am not wrong, this is my first time doing such quiz on myself... or maybe the 2nd time... dunno la.... so anyway, pls try hahaha
10 questions, each correct answer is 10 marks. ganbatte!
http://NorthSwallow.friendtest.comtrallalallalaala~
I went JOGGING! (with mum somemore)!
HEY HEY HEY!!! I have been hesitating to jog for about 2 years! Finally today I made it!! Purely on my own self motivation aka determination!!! Ard 7pm, I was getting my attire when the show My Fair Princess was abt to start. The rest of my family started on their dinner... But i am so determined that I rather not watch the show, which is the 2nd last episode liao. Mum saw me and got tempted. Then she wanted to join me!!! But she was eating, so I decided that since this is a rare opportunity and I never do such thing with her b4, so why not? Hence I agreed to have a light dinner and wait until the show finish.
Mum was picky on what to wear hahah cos she never wore shorts outside before... haha face thing lar... but I convinced her that nobody cares!! I oso looked auntie with hair pinned up and all hahaha.... So we strolled along this long path before we reached the Clementi Stadium. Mum walked all the way while I did jogging. She could not run becos doctor said that ppl with high blood pressure shouldn't do heavy stuff.... somemore she just had her eye operation last month. She walked one round while I finished only 3 rounds before the person-in-charge said they were closing soon. Hmm so now i know the stadium closes at 8:30pm... Haiz, i can still go on for 3 or 4 or more rounds lor.... nvm... it's still a good start! The air at night super nice. Juz strolling and smelling the air made me feel very peaceful and relaxed..... no tots of work stress at all.
When I reached home, my thighs ached abit but now perfectly no trace of any pain liao. I realised my legs, especially, have weakened alot. Juz by doing warm-ups, I can feel the strain and the difficulty in stretching and spliting etc.... hmm.... wish i can run more in the future.... next time got chance i also wanna go out at night and walk walk ard the neighbourhood, with my loved ones and friends etc.
All right, muz get back to work on my graphite poster.... haiz...
Huh!? Lovesick?
(YK, I've replied to ur comments for the previous post)
Hey, what is going on around here manz.... Ok, recently I am been hearing, seeing and knowing many many cases of same love problems.
It is like you like someone but yet fear of rejection or something liddat or doubting in oneself, that you reached a hesitant point of dunno whether to tell that person or not. You dun wan to get rejected or dun wan to get a sad answer or dun wish to face the situation or dunno how to face the situation. Hence, ending up in a inner self of battles.... struggling in oneself.
Many cases of this is happening ard me.... In sch especially... inclusive of archi and anime club frens. wah jialat... wat is going on.... Have we all finally come to reach a stage of life where we face such crosscroads? hmm.... is such problems simple? or juz difficult to handle... i dunno how to help them.. this has alot to do with fear, confidence etc
Recently one archi fren reminded me of the anime called "Kareshi Kanojo" aka Nan2 Nu3 Qiao1 Qiao1 Ban3. I remembered the female lead character said something that is damn meaningful. She said, "One tends to be protective of ownself, scared to be rejected and get hurt. However, if u truly love that person, u do not mind getting urself hurt by that person."
haiz.... so many things happening to everyone.... even for today's dinner, I was eating very slowly.... as I was dazing, stoning or thinking abt some things... haiz....
Thursday, February 10, 2005
(CNY) Newsletter. anyone?
hey suddenly i thinking of having some monthly Julie's newsletter on my blog, featuring food, fashion tips, jobs, news etc.... i dunno, can be anything. But then thinking of my busy schedule, I cant have such newletter every month.... haiz too bad. Anyway shall use today as my first issue~ kidding.
After visiting two relatives' houses, my family went out to world trade for lunch..... here goes:
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FOOD NEWS:
Featuring Sakae Sushi in HabourFront Centre!
It seemed that every CNY, my family will patronise Sakae Sushi... all becos of my sister's doing. This year is the third time i think. Dun worry I wont brag abt the architecture stuff here. Well, if you wanted something that is filling, try the Ramens. Gurantee you to feel full.... the soup is sweet but the noodles are more bland. The price ranges from $6.90 to $9.90. Relatively cheaper compared to the western meals? The $9.90 one is
Gozoya (not sure if correct spelling)
Ramen which comes with 3 dumplings as side dish. So, quite value for money isn't it? For those prefer more veggies, try
Miso Ramen that is $7.90. I ordered the latter, while mum ordered the former one. Naruto in the anime "Naruto" is totally obsessed in eating ramen... He ate as though they taste very very nice but.... here i dun feel so. Is it becos Japanese ppl has different tastes from us or maybe the ramen here is diff from the native country....? I should try ramen when I have the chance to go Japan.... haiz, another wishful thinking.....
Coming to the deserts part.... Now they have these ice-cream that looked like peach, apple or ball-looking shapes. I first saw them in Genki Sushi, now Sakae Sushi oso have.... There are many types... I recommend
Apple Sensation and
Peach Fantasia. Their crust is made of milk choc and inside is gelato. Peach is a better one than Apple becos the taste are sweeter and stronger. And there's a ferrero inside as the 'seed'! So the eating experience more fun than apple. Apple's gelato is apple mint. The centre is a very hard piece of tiramisu-taste choc. very hard to bite, but let it melt in ur mouth will do. But for ppl looking for really tiramisu kind, and coffee flavour mixing with choc, can try
Totafu. It has choc pieces and coca powder covering the crust. Inside, you can choose to haf a vanilla bean centre or cherry flavour. All these gelatos are priced at $5.90 at genki sushi, but shld be ard the same here as well. Oh, there is this fried ice-cream, forgot the name but it is very filling too. It's worth a try, $3.90.
hmm the official website didnt list ALL food they offer but at least has some info there. the outlets and special promotion etc.
http://www.sakaesushi.com.sg/index.html
FASHION TIPS:
Fashion DIY!
I didn't shop 4 any clothes for CNY specially... And I do not wish to wear that hot halter I wore for the cousin's wedding dinner last year... feel uncomfortable... think I am still not used to it... still conservative to a certain extent. so how? How to find something that is presentable and nice with those normal clothes i have? A sudden idea lit up. I took a sleeveless dark red dress that is knee-length and has a long slit on one side. I wore it when I am in sec4 for the formal dinner during the etiqutte LifeSkills camp. Ok... den i matched it with the white pants I had. Tada! Done! My mum and sis were 'wowed' at the final outlook. My sis made a funny comment.... :"Hey, you know ar, if you wear like this to redlight district areas, ppl will think you are one of the
Vietnam chicks." .... ---__--- What!?!?!?
Anyway, maybe my rubbish skills of mix and match are getting much better and mum is more 'open' in terms of fashion, that she actually said this outlook is refreshing and special than the yesterday's one which i think more proper. I am quite surprised to hear that from her.... So.. next time, juz get any dress that has slits so high u dun like or too short and sexy tt is not to your liking, (and best be sleeveless) u can really match it with any pants. of cos dun match them together if their colours are too weird together. And pls, best is
sleeveless one (heavily mentioned again). cos if u are using 3/4 to full sleeves type, rest assured you will look like a malay or from vietnam. And if u haf a foreign look (like me), worse.... good luck to you.
BEAUTY TIPS:
Facial Mask!
Do you realised that now when u washed ur face with facial wash, you don't juz feel the non-greasy feeling but also skin pulling at ur sides, ie. taut? Very dry and all? ok, this is the symptoms of getting old! DUH.... that means, your face is actually getting dry. U need to put moisturiser after toner after the washup. However, according to my experience, it is very hard to get the right type of moisturiser for ur skin without getting pimples after usage. One recommendation is ... use facial mask! The first thing comes to your mind is that u dunno which one is good? wat is good? how to choose from the large variety of products available out there in shops? expensive?? Troublesome to use?
ok~ I'll answer them without sweat!! I learnt from my archi fren last year abt these of cos. He's good at all these. Well, it doesnt mean only expensive ones work. Sometimes cheaper ones work best on ur skin. Diff ppl diff skin mah. There are cheaper ones ard. Go Watson to see. How to choose? Ok, best is look at the ingredients. Try to choose
those that do not put perfume or fragrance and no colouring. These are the good ones according to my fren. If ur budget is low and you are very busy person, I recommend u "Simple" brand. It has products ranging from masks to toner to moisturiser. Not exp. And within 3 minutes, u are done. It is cream type anyway. Use 2-3 times a week can liao. For me i only use when I remember. haha... Use warm water to rinse off. There u are, u feel ur face clean yet not dry. *thumbs up*
(guys can use oso leh! not only gals mah)
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ok.... haha dunno what to say le.... so how u find this 'newsletter' thingy? haha sorry lar, not very informative.... anyway hope u all enjoy urselves! Currently too full with food....
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Humans are sooo interesting...
(to Ed for the comments in previous blog: wah kao... u very fast leh. I added the quiz thing like 5-10 min later i wrote the entry lor... Oh abt ur comment. Everything there can be true but NOT THE LAST SENTENCE!!!! oh come on, it's juz a quiz! I dun write that myself!!)
Yesterday I was online while counting down. However soon many left... they went to sleep or watch tv... for me, none of these... dunno y dun wan sleep.... was still struggling to read my text for the draft paper to hand in. Suddenly, Msn went nuts and we were all logged out. I turned on my icq and saw no one familiar online... So soon when I was abt to sian away, a fren pop in to greet~ (oh yes, my hp recieved many sms that was sent hours ago... lag until really crazy).
Our conversation turned to a very IQ and maybe EQ-challenging one. Q n A session... until it was 4 plus am. I realised some ppl in this world (not refering to anyone in particular) are actually very 'hidden'. becos of the things a person do and behave all the time, others will tend to think this person is liddat only. but one will nvr realise actually the mind is thinking of something else or know more than wat one speaks at tt moment. This reminded me of playing a game of 'Go' or Wei2 Qi2. One has to think wat the other think to make a move. However sometimes u think u are ahead of that person's thinking, whilst in fact the other has taken a step before u. And then u oso think wat if he thinks ahead before of u in this, so u haf to think ahead of that again. so as this goes on repeated, we climbed so deep or high into the mind game, until u realise though u know wat is going on each other minds but u dunno how to react or wat action to take. in the end, it is back to square one. U get wat i mean? if not, read slowly again the paragraph hahha~
Humans... can be that scary. i know everyone does hide some things in their mind, but then some are really the expert ones aka the very 'hidden' ones. Even words that are spoken seem innocent or nothing, but actually they hide profound thinking etc. gao1 sheng1 mo4 ce4. They have the potential to lie gracefully and intelligently. They are also great actors/actresses in acting stuff, including blurness.
I apologise myself for being something like that but rest assured I applied it in a neutral or good side, as I do nothing against my consciences or cause any serious harm to anyone. I am juz doing it sometimes for the sake of protecting myself and ppl i treasure or be fair in some cases, and sometimes i am juz really sleepyhead at times, not being alert. so my genuine blur is hidden with fake blur here and there. no one knows when is wat, sometimes not even myself.
Aiya wat am i tokking. Anyway.... Wanna say such ppl are so mysterious and 'scary' hahahaha!!! ops am i saying myself..... neh, i cant be tt li hai rite.... or seems so ar... MUAHAHAHAHA... ok, think i eat too much until i crazy...
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
Chinese New Year?! Wat new year when u haf work to do....
Oh great.... This morning I woke up at 1 plus in the afternoon... and to my horror, I received Brenda's sms telling me that the draft paper for a module need to hand up by today instead. I called up others and realised that they dunno oso. So now haf to pia the work... I planned to wake up ard 1o plus den clean up my room b4 going out to walk walk.... Looks like my plan spoil liao..... grrr.....
Ah juz some little updates here.... my interim crit is on 24th, ok... not 21st... but still will be piaing alot of work for it... haiz.... And oh yes, I have completed all the 11 levels of the game "bounce" in my Nokia phone. Those with 6610 (and 6100?) shld know what game is that. Level 7 to 11 cannot be complete without the cheat code man. Too difficult really. Anyway those wan to know wat the code is... juz type 787898. Den rest assured u wont get killed by the spikes. However, it doesnt guarantee you wont get stuck at some areas. Well I did get stuck. There are still some tricky part that u still need some intelligence and retries to aviod or get over them. Yep. My phone is fine anyway. Hope it will remain like this for the years to come. I really dun intend to change phone. I love my phone with all the new ringtones I dled. heehee
Mum bought some 'special' packets of tissue. The designs are spoof drawings of movie titles... Damn funny. got chance i take photos and upload on the blog. Very very cute and funny.
Ok, better go back to do my draft paper. Hopefully can countdown with ppl online tonight....
------- oh I saw this quiz in mich's blog, so I took a break and took the quiz... very short one lar. My result is...
Monday, February 07, 2005
Final Fantasy Series!
I am deep in love with FF.... esp FF10 and onwards.... Fantasy is such a big attraction to me... Who can ever bring me there.....
Recently been looking ard at FF websites. I chanced upon one and my anime fren gave me one. So total 2 websites i wanna intro here.
I did some thinking and I came up with this conclusion. I think that from FF8 series onwards, the EVEN series are done by one team and the ODD ones are by another. Look at the style, the story etc. Well I dunno, I may be wrong. I oso realised that it seemed even series are more agressively publicised. Compared FF8, FF10 and FF12 to FF9 and FF11. The answer is pretty clear isnt it? Anyway I won't be surprised that they had two teams working like that, it increases the production efficiency anyway.
http://www.rpgdreamer.com/
I found this one. There are alot of movies or trailers or FMV of different games, not only FF. But then u cant download.
http://www.ffspirit.net/
This is the damn cool site but only for FF series. From movies to game info to mp3 to wallpaper to character profile, basically almost anything u wan to know! U can download! Yea man! But then becos alot of ppl dling from it, u have to wait 1 hr each time for the server to reset the limit. so yea.... but it's worth it I tell ya.
Final Fantasy 12 has very different story plot than its typical previous series. Also, no more sole romance between the main characters. (even though i still wish that princess will like vaan!)
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Just finished drawing graphite poster... but the main headache is the colouring part... alamak... good luck to me.... ok, I am saying this for the third time: My interim crit is on 21st Feb!! Right after my bdae?! Uso!!! Uso!!! NO WAY! ok lar, on the bright side..... can celebrate after the studio time...... ha ha ha ha......
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Some quotes from FF series:
Squall: Why do people depend on each other? In the end you're on your own
Yuna: As I bear the darkness into battle, my suffering becomes my strength
Freya: To be forgotten is worse than death
Squall: As long as you don't get your hopes up, you can take anything... You feel less pain
Auron: Every story must have an ending
Seymour: Life is but a passing dream, but the death that follows is eternal
Amarant: The only dependable thing about the future is uncertainty
Sephiroth: What I have shown you is reality. What you remember... that is the illusion
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cool huh, some of the quotes. very inspiring. accompanying me through the nights of my tots...
Sunday, February 06, 2005
Seeing red before CNY
If you are thinking that I meant I am angry about something, you are wrong~~ haha. To be precise, I am seeing BLOOD.
From last week until now, I see twice.... Last week i was on the bus trying to zip up the black folder I always carry around. I juz ran my finger along the teeth of the zip to find the head. And tada, the next moment is a hot piercing pain on my middle finger. Next moment I see deep bright blood flowing out of the 1 cm slash near the tip of the finger. Great.
Today I was bathing and tried to tear the flaking piece of dried skin at the side of a finger, and due to my impulsiveness, the tear went deep and long down the finger. hmm blood again. I dun care the cut though but it's a nuisance when I was washing clothes etc, where I have to use super strong alkaline detergents. The solution would touch and seep into the wound. And that sudden biting and bone-piercing pain is enough to let out a little scream... ok, think i am too bored, that's y giving these descriptions.
Anyway, speaking abt blood, many ppl around me since young had been telling me that AB blood type ppl are weird or crazy of some sort. I never believe it. Today I thought about it and came up with some analysis and therefore answer to why the AB ppl seemed 'weird' or 'crazy' to them. Everyone has the chance of having personality problems, or being extremely sensitive at certain issues, or think too much etc. However, maybe AB ppl just have ALL these problems or features in them, so ended up having the full effect on them. But of course, AB ppl may not be the only ones who haf the 'full effect'. But it is just that majority of AB ppl have it. So it seems they have higher probability of getting such effects. Being AB+ myself, this is my personal answer which may be the hypothesis too.
So much work given throughout this week and hence the next and so on, I cant enjoy CNY. As in the mood is not there. Jo also feel the same way. I think many ppl out there experiencing the same thing too. Haiz...~~~~~
Friday, February 04, 2005
My First Battle in Myself
After studio today, it was 5 plus near 6pm.... Some of my studiomates decided on the spot to go Holland V to make site measurements again. I oso decided on the spot to join them. Dunno why in the middle of the journey.... my dark self appeared. I grew moody. After alighting the bus, kx and rosalind commented I haf that dark (to them is sour), scary face. At that moment, I can't even control myself to let it surfaced on my face. They asked and I just tell them it is considered as own problems.... leading to such moodswings.... (actually is it moodswings? I believe that are factors resulting it. And I think i know wat they are...) Kx thinks it is the money stuff.... no, at that moment it is purely not. The rest doing on the same site in Holland V except me. So i went to my site at Tanman Warna by myself and looked ard. Even spoke to one of the construction workers there. But i think he still blur blur and not fully understand what I was asking him... haiz. But after an hour and so, I sort of get back to a happier mood... But then throughout this whole night, I realised myself in a very serious mode. Maybe too many things to do lar. Brain is full of things to do and trying to plan how to do things in organised manner.... Anyway, I drank alot of things.... peach tea, den HL choc milk, and den eat up half a can of fried sotong balls. And soon was asleep on the sofa. I woke up at 1 plus and got up to bathe. here i am... blogging...
I think this is my first battle of the 2 me's inside for this sem. Think i am coping it better this time? I really hope so. I must! I need to control the unleashed darkness and put back into that prison again, or make it do things for me. herh herh.... at this moment, some animes pop into my brain... and reminded me I still need to draw and design a poster for this year's Graphite compeition for my club again. HAIZ!~
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
Am I still unstable?
Last night I was rushing for today's Urban Design presentation. I did til 6 plus and caught a little nap before going to sch... abit late for lecture. den after that rushed the ppt slides again. And later to my horror, one fren told me I missed the tutorial after the lecture.... ops... I tot is next week... shucks. And I was so blur, luckily Weiqiang kept me updated and even chose a chapter for me to do. haha~ Thanks manz!! Otherwise I think I'll be plunged into a state of helplessness again. With that insecurity, who knows what will become of me again. So this time Weiqiang is my saviour~~ ahaha~~
haiz i realised my phone went abit crazy again... most probably becos yesterday night i was so dead and accidentally dropped it to the floor... I didnt realised it was attached to my ears via the headphones as I were listening to 93.3 fm. (see, that's how tired I am). so juz now some ppl tried calling me but it will shut off halfway. when i on it again and call the person, it will ring abit and then shut off again!!!!!!! OH MY goodness~ almost the same problem I haf last time! Dun tell me I spoilt it again and have to pay another 70 plus bucks to repair! NO way!! USO!!!!!Uso uso uso uso~~~~~ *faint*
Will that sad mind, I stepped into the room and prepared to present the ppt slides. The teachers said my grp still need to improve in alot of areas, starting from defining certain things. haiz.... more work...
Besides that, we were told to do 2 more assignments of other modules one... wah sian...
I reached home dead beat... and dunno why i juz wanna stuffed myself with rocky road ice-cream. ok, i shouldnt use the word 'stuffed', sounds too crude or make me sound as though I am harming myself. I ate 2 cups of it heeheeeheee..... 1 hour later, which is now, is almost the time for dinner....
This CNY is going to be a very busy one, not busy getting ang baos, not busy visiting ppl, not busy eating goodies but busy in getting headaches and stress.
Haiz.... my hp wanna die liddat but it seems if the calling is not activated, it seemed ok leh.... alot of ppl say it's time to change phone, but then the sunk cost of this phone is too high for me to change... sigh..........
