Name : Juliana S.Y. Chan
Known as : North Swallow / Hoku Tsubameko. Currently renamed to NS Chan Studio
Occupation:
- Current: Architect
- Others: Freelance graphics designer and Illustrator
Societies:
- Alumni of NUS Students' Comics and Animation Society
- Artists Society of Singapore (ASOS)- Secretary
[Profile in ASOS can be view
here.]
Hobbies:
- Painting
- Drawing
[More Introduction can be viewed at my Official Website
here.]
: Achievements :
Year 2015
- Pencil Drawing “Young Memories” featured in American art magazine, “Strokes of Genius 8”. Oil Painting “Simple. Happiness” exhibited at “SG50 National Day Calligraphy and Painting Exhibition 2015”, organized by Ngee Ann Cultural Centre Ngee Ann Kongsi. Oil Painting “Sri Mariamman Temple in Chinatown, Singapore” selected for “Arising Star” FASS Artists Grand Art SG50 Exhibition, organized by the Federation of Art Societies (Singapore). Oil Paintings "Her Family" and "Still Life No.3 - Together with Joy" selected for "Blossom and Flourish" Singapore National Women's Art Exhibition 2015 (in conjunction with the celebration of SG50), organized by the Federation of Art Societies (Singapore).
Year 2014
- Pencil Drawing “Honesty of Time” featured in American art magazine, “Strokes of Genius 7”.
Year 2012
- Assistant Treasurer of Artists Society of Singapore. Works featured in art publication of Artists Society of Singapore.
Year 2010
- 2nd Prize Winner for Open Character Design Digital Category in Extravaganza - Graphite 2010 competition. Exhibition and Prize Ceremony held with Anime Festival Asia 2010 at Suntec Hall, 14 Nov.
Year 2009
- 2nd Prize Winner for Open Character Design Digital Category in Extravaganza - Graphite 2009 competition. Exhibition and Prize Ceremony held with Anime Festival Asia 09 at Suntec Hall, 21 Nov.
- Thesis project selected for City Exhibition (NUS Architecture Graduation Exhibition- "How does your garden grow?") held at Iluma Urban Entertainment Centre, 13 Jun.
Year 2008
- 2nd Prize Winner for Open Character Design Digital Category in Graphite 2008 competition. Exhibition and Prize Ceremony held with Anime Festival Asia 08 at Suntec Hall, 22 Nov.
- Exhibited individual installation for team exhibition “Site, Situation, Spectator” collaborated among Department of Architecture, University Scholar Programme and NUS Museum. Installation is exhibited in NUS Museum.
Year 2006
- Selected for Student’s Exchange Programme (SEP) to Lund, Sweden.
- Design Projects (Year 3 semester 1 and semester 2) selected for Department exhibition.
Year 2003-4
- Head of Manga Sub-Committee in NUS Students’ Comics and Animation Society.
- Pioneer as Head of 2004 “Graphite” Organising Committee to organise first TERTIARY manga drawing competition for 3 universities: NUS, NTU and SMU.
- Design Project (Year 1 semester 2) selected for Department exhibition.
Year 2001-2
- Assistant Secretary and Head of Publicity of Hwa Chong Junior College Chinese Orchestra (HCCO).
- Won gold medal in team competition (HCCO) in Singapore Youth Festival (SYF) 2001.
- Performed duet in HCCO concert at Victoria Concert Hall 2002.
- Awarded First in comic illustration for competition organised by HCJC’s Comics Club 2002.
Year 1997-2000
- Awarded Best in Art Elective Programme (AEP) subject in 1997, 1998 and 2000.
- GCE O’ Levels: 9 distinctions, includes Higher Art Distinction in AEP, 1997-2000.
- Selected by school NYGH and Ministry of Education to represent Singapore in 1999 to Atlanta, Georgia, USA for overseas summer programme in Atlanta College of Fine Arts.
- 3rd prize winner in Singapore Story – Youth Edition Art competition organised by National Youth Council in 1998.
- Merit Prize winner in Care-for-Nature Spot-Art competition at Sungei Buloh Nature Park in 1998.
Year 1996
- Awarded 2nd position for Lions International Peace Poster Contest in Southeast Asia.
: Career History :
Associate at DP Architects, 2014-Current
Architectural Executive at DP Architects, 2012-2014
Architectural Assistant at DP Architects, 2009-2012
Freelance Graphics Designer, 2008-2011
Internship at K2LD Architects, 2007-2008
- Completed interior project for renovation of apartment at Hillington Green, Singapore.
- Completed interior project for creation of wedding banquet showroom at G-Hotel, Penang.
Internship at DP Architects Pte Ltd, 2006
- Participated in A&A works for Saint Andrew’s Cathedral, Singapore.
Internship at The Design Studio of Colin K. Okashimo and Associates, 2005
- Model-making
Freelance Graphics Designer, 2004 - Current
- T-shirt design for NUS Students’ Comics and Animation Society.
- 2 Website Interface designs for NUS Students’ Comics and Animation Society, working with programmer.
- Poster Design for Graphite 2005 Competition.
- Costume designs for University Scholar Programme Rag Day 2004.
- Banner and nametag design for 3rd Great Asian Streets Symposium held in NUS, Department of Architecture.
- Logo and T-shirt design for Hall XI, FOC 2004 “Ignixion”, in Nanyang Technological University.
Multimedia Artist (contract-based), and Graphics Designer (freelance) at AsknLearn.com Pte Ltd, 2003-2004
- Participated in website competition.
- Developed illustrations and digital graphics for website layout or interface design, character design, stories illustrations, logos and icons, brochures, product covers, banners, posters, and simple computer-based animations.
- Participated in computer animated e-Learning softwares for educational uses.
: Qualifications/Education :
- Registered Architect - Qualified Person (QP) from 2012 - current.
- University Scholar's Programme, NUS, Singapore, 2009.
- Master Degree in Architecture, NUS, Singapore, 2009.
- Bachelor (Honours) Degree in Architecture, NUS, Singapore, 2003-2007.
Friday, September 30, 2005
Some inspiration with Throbbing Headache
Today supposed to spend whole day at Tiong Bahru site to count the vehicles at specific timings until 8pm..... Yester-yesterdae i only had 2 hours of sleep, yesterday i didnt sleep early either... and this morning woke up at 6 plus somemore...Den I went out to take morning traffic taking at the site. After I finished it rained... and I dunno where to go, and walked to 7-11 store to get some biscuits as lunch.... I juz decided this morning that from now onwards, I am going to cut down in soft drinks (i didnt drink much these days actually) and cookies/biscuits.... but then now.... lol.... anyway i walked back to the place i was previously and sat at the pavilion until 12 to do afternoon traffic taking. I feel like.... dunno how to say... like a run-away kid liddat... slacking there and haf nowhere to go... only haf snacks for meals... lol. At the cool pavilion, I was really doing nothing... some singing, daydreaming, thinking watever.
When it was 12 noon, i walked out to do the traffic taking again, and the sun was directly above. Rather hot until I had to take my umbrella out.... and i get alot of stares from ppl walking by as I had been sitting there from 8:30 to 10:30 and then i appeared again at 12 noon... even a chamelon stared at me at a tree trunk in front of me..... for a few minutes somemore.... aiyo.... heck ar. Later I started to doze off and on while recording and counting vehicles.... i even had abit of dreams here and there. wah... dozing in public..... if robbers come to attack me at this time, it would be an easy job. I had difficulty keeping awake and sober with the throbbing headache. Finally when it was 2 pm, I packed up to take last look around the site and I went back home.... the buses I waited was so slow that when i reached home, it was so late... I tot I could take a nap before I go there for the night 6-8 traffic recording.... but when i woke up it was 7pm!!! argh,... so i didnt go afterall, too late... haiz.... stupid headache.
Anyway heck abt the headache. I had some inspirations for a piece of short writing and drawing while I was slacking at the pavilion. When i was sitting there, there's this cat which came by opposite of where i sat. And it saw some peanut shells stuck in between the timber pieces of the bench. It tried to reach with the mouth, and later it tried to use one limb/hand to reach but dunno how. The whole scene is soooooooo cute!!!! After some time it gave up, and looked at me with 'hmpf' face and walked away. Haha.... i feel like laughing out.... but i didnt. soooo cute. So i tot of a little short writing and decided i will add in some drawings with it. It will be a piece of love story between me and cat. Haha so stay tune!!!! will post them up when i am done~~~ hehe
Thursday, September 29, 2005
Mum Bdae
I didnt think I will be that blur but it happened. My frens said that it is me being stressed up too much. I had this Nuclear essay to be completed and handed up by 30th sept. I know the date yet i tot today is the deadline when i also know today is 29th! So there's really no reason why I still mixed up the dates. Anyway it is a blessing in disguise, if I drag further by one more day, I cant do my design project tomolo. Thank goodness! Anyway, it is the FIRST time i handed up work earlier than deadline in University. wow.... something worth celebrating...
After sch, we had a mini celebration for mum bdae... We went somewhere to haf dinner together and went shopping in a supermarket. It is really fun cos we were like buying stuff, and I get to buy my fav. stuff too~~ yay~~ by the time we reached home with alot alot of stuff, it was about 9 plus.
Now 10:33 le. Mum is enjoying her recorded show lol... and i think ed and the IC ppl have went into the departure hall liao. Hereby, I wish them all the best for the coming term!! good luck ppl!
Monday, September 26, 2005
Nice weather, everything's nice~
(ok.... thanks ed, for the correct spelling.... -_-" my bad english.... yup jo, all those illusion of the drawing is wat i call the Perspective Illusion. I did that theme for my O'Lvl AEP Project. Just that wat i did was a mix of painted and real boxes as the whole 3d Installation Art. The real boxes were calculated in distorted angle precisely and the bottom part were specially painted in distortion, so that from one exact position, the person will see the boxes flying above the canteen ground and flying out towards him/her from beyond the wall. :) heehee)
Today is the start of the rest of the term... haiz, but luckily everything is going smoothly.... with nice weather later somemore...
Had a little Matlab mocktest during usp lesson, and later is the archi p2 briefing. This time, my studio's site is at Tiong Bahru and we went there for a little visit.... it is some place that I never stepped on before... and when my archi frens knew abt it, some had the following reactions: "huh! u didnt come here before? ur first time here? Here is well-known for food leh!! u didnt know? Wah, u deserve a beating. Wah lao, u havent seen enuff of singapore and yet u already wanna fly off elsewhere liao... u are the worst...." ok, they are mainly from one or two people.... and i exaggerated abit la. but they did say something similar, and one used Hokkien to 'scold' me... lol.... Abt 5 plus, the rain poured and we were dismissed. I headed home... by then, the rain had stopped and the nice breeze was blowing.... with the overcast sky.... the feeling was so shiok.
When I reached home, I received a parcel! ooo, an archi fren sent me different types of biscuits from Korea!! haha thanks, sy!! Thanks for the biscuits (i am well-known biscuit queen) and the nice letter u wrote to encourage me, though erm... the biscuits were abit squashed... lol. Haha, i seem to like to have such pleasant surprises/gifts, regardless if they are juz a letter. It is nice to be showered with care from frens. :p Little stuff here and there is enuff to make me happy~~ hahaha~~~ somemore it is from overseas! wah..... it's the tots that count!
ok la, hopefully a happy beginning will mean happy for the rest of this term ^^~~
Sunday, September 25, 2005
Nice street art!
hey, got this link from an anime senior. Damn cool! The first pic will tempt u. When u interested, u can take a look at the main homepage where it will show more and be prepared to be bewildered!!
The coca cola picture art!
http://tentative.net/JBMcDragon/backrooms/kitchen/junkdrawer/beever.html Now, the homepage:
http://users.skynet.be/J.Beever/pave.htm
Farewell Dinner
Yesterday, I think, would be the last relaxing day I would haf for this semester. what a sad sentence to start with. Lol.....
What we did was ktv in the afternoon, den dinner buffet at Kublai Khan. The five of us, jo,me,ed,wk and wm sang from 2 to 6:30..... I think we sang the snow wolf lake songs until scared of them le... ok, maybe almost scared only. Kublai khan had lots of seafood,... ok not alot but at least they haf some variety of shellfish stuff....i tried my first musscle of my life!!! It was breaded somemore... so it is more 'edible' for me.... yea~~~ juz one though. yk in the end never join us... We went to ed's house after yock came to join us at the mrt... Sel came a few minutes after we reached the house. Throughout the whole night, jo, ed, wk and ed's dad played mahjong til dunno wat time.... with ed as the biggest winner. wk the biggest loser... lol.... meanwhile, me, yock and sel were studying in his room. Apparently I was the first to concuss... the two of them pia thru the night... very powerful.... Later abt 4 plus 5 I gave up studying and chitchat with jo outside and his dad. Later which ed and wk joined us. When his parents went to sleep, while we also tried to do so, wk prevented us from sleeping by 'entertaining' us... until 6am for him to go home.... grrr.... his jokes or maybe not jokes... were too much for us to take... hahahah~~~ (gosh, someone pls save his from his rampant madness and playfulness!!) By the time me and jo woke up, it was 12 noon!! and sel and yock were nowhere to be found!!! ops, again.... and ed was still in bed!!!! we tried to wake him up as he's gonna be later for his outing later but a lazybum he is, he wont bulge a single inch. His parents did a better job in making him wake up. Me and jo chatted with his dad until 1:15pm... and the conversation became mostly abt his engineering work and his past encounters. wow, i was amazed and I tried to follow. i think both jo and ed were blur blur liao. So we bid farewell to his parents then and we headed home while ed had another buffet lunch outing with his other frens.... omg.... I didnt have my lunch and yet i felt damn full lor.... >.<
ok i left half a day to do some work... die... DIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEE!
but still, i agree that work is work, but shldnt neglect ppl ard u.... Last time, i am not like that, instead, more of Heart and Mind of Steel. Now I know work is not the only thing in life, and u shld treasure ppl ard u. So no matter how unaccomplished in my assignments at this moment (note: at this moment only!!), i do not think I will regret the time i spent at home and with my frens :) The real champion is how to balance both between ppl and work. I will aim to that.
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Another rare "family" outing in the busy days
~~ Today went to see Jo's Lion Dance performance for some open ceremony at SMU. I tot only me and sel going only... but it turned out that our dear busy Ed able to come! And he reached so much earlier than both of us..... Anyway after the performance, we went to SMU's "forgot-wat-name"'s Kopitiam to have drinks... hehe jo's treat! We chatted for quite some time before we decided to walk to marina square for dinner~~ We finally settled at this thai restaurant after flipping the coin.... and ed was fainting under hunger... lol
The Tom Yam soup was soooo spicy that I became 'drunk' under it, as in abit dizzy... I always become dizzy when I eat too spicy food... and my lips will be swollen... lol.... me and jo ate reasonably sufficient for our stomach while the 2 guys were still very hungry... esp sel... envious of their metabolic rate.... So we left the place after some chatting and went to try the Carl's Jr fastfood restaurant... The burgers are really big!! So is the price...... hehe... We chatted til abt 10pm before we set off for home... More talking on the mrt... Wah, it has been a long that we haf such 'talkative' outings.... since many ppl were busy and our clique sort of dispersed here and there for the moment...
How i wish hols is still here or continue somemore... I haven had enuff rest or enjoy myself yet... haiz~~ all right, back to work!
Monday, September 19, 2005
Natural white face?
This morning my mom accompanied my dad to go polyclinic to haf his check-up.... so I sun bian go with them and see doc.... i have been wanting to see.... but very very lazy to go... cos I HATE seeing doc.
There are many reasons why I dun like to go clinics etc and see doc. 1st, plain lazy....2ndly, I think it is a waste of time unless i have impt things to settle. 3rdly, the waiting time is so darn long, i dread it. You may think i can bring some things to read there but then at such atmosphere, I dun haf the mood to read things properly. 4th, I think the air quality is bad.... i always feel my nose clogging abit sometimes.... 5th, I dun like to see some things there.... I will feel sad..
While i was waiting for my turn, I saw this very elderly couple. The husband juz came and his wife wanted to move to another seat to let him sit... Den very very slowly and painfully, she got up, using so much energy... and i saw her mouthed "aiiiii.....yoooo...". Suddenly I can feel my nose getting sour... I quickly turned my head back.... haiz... too sad to see further.... it reminded me of juz now while climbing the overhead bridge, my mum was trying hard to climb up... I remembered last time how fast she could be... haiz.... I havent been going out with my family much.... each of us got own things to do... somemore I am always in sch or somewhere or at home... so I don't notice the slight/gradual changes. But I do sense it when they are doing things ard the house....
Anyway the doc said that there's nothing wrong with me and my blood pressure is not low... rather normal... hmm i feel that she didnt wrap the thing ard my arms properly.... well.....nvm... ok so she didnt recommend me to eat any supplements stuff... if that's the case, I will continue my codliver oil's tablets.... Then she say my face doesnt look like i'm having low blood... hmm... Ah ba said my face is rather... urm... ghostly/faintly white, and thus he suggested maybe my face colour is due to low blood... But since i dun haf that, means..... my ghostly white face, or some ppl say fair, porcelain, or watever face... is natural....
Another day juz passed liddat... after I camped in engine comp lab for abt 3 hours or more..... finished my Matlab worksheets..... whew~ I think i like engine comp labs more than my facs... cos they haf alot of labs and the comps are all very nice. atmosphere very nice too!! peaceful~~ No one chased me out oso.... lol!
Lalalala~~~ ^^
more -_-zzz
This morning I woke up admist of my dreams again... Guess wat it is this time.... yes... related to archi somehow again... Well, I dreamt that one of my anime frens had done alot of interior design for many many many shops, which was why I was so amazed and shocked in the dreams. The funny thing is this anime fren is someone who I am not familiar with, I never spoke to him at all. He's MIA from the club anyway. Hmm weird... So I was like visiting the shops and looking at the interior designing. Later part of my dreams was that I was under some advisor or interior designer, and so I had a temporary shop selling stuff.... I was to learn more under him before I can revamp the whole shop and sell different stuff... wah.... wat dream is this....
Anyway went to sch for proj discussion and returned home by the evening. Some ppl told me that my other proj grp's grpmates were well-known terrible ones... somemore it is two of them in the 3-member team. The most probably worst situation i will haf is do everything myself. Wah kaoz... best liao... If that is the case, I haf to take the leader role le.... and hopefully I seem fierce enuff to make them do stuff.... else... i bao ga liao (hokkien).... >.< sadded.....
I think it is heaven's wills that i will not haf smooth time at anything... Well, i guess another part of my lifespan will be gone after doing that particular proj. I will die sooner or later.. lol.. CHOY *touch wood*..... ok, u will see me struggling for life again... cheers....
Sunday, September 18, 2005
-_- zzz
hmm~~ planned to wake up early but ended up sleeping til 11 plus 12.... aiyo... slacky saturday i muz say... really let down my hair... it has been a long time since i can be so relaxed.
I think i know one of the catalysts for making me feel sad is due to a MTV i watched. It is T.M. Revolution 's "vestige"... I think this is the correct title ba. There is only one guy singer and he's the one who sang most of the opening and ending songs for the animes, Gundam Seed and Gundam Seed Destiny. This MTV is very fantasy-like... very nice scenes and also the pictorial way they tell a story... It is a tradegy between a couple... with the guy died and i think the guy is already dead as he is in angel-form, yet he sacrificed his angel-life to accompany the gal. It pains to see him how he was in pain while he was strolling in the garden with her. With pieces of feathers dropping off one by one.... Finally he was dead, to nothingness... haiz....
"如果未来这么灰暗,甚至很想放弃,若你不想为自己而前进,至少为了我吧。"
Saturday, September 17, 2005
Nice friday~
right... after a few days of craze and making some ppl worried, I apologise and decided to shake off all those rubbish away... I must not keep thinking.. the more i think/comtemplate, I will make myself sink deeper and I will lose myself, unable to find myself back. No one can help me if that ever occurs. I decided to look forward without hesitation. Cos these hesitation may be redundant and I dun wish to die at my own hands.
Today i was sleeping like a dead log. actually i woke up at 11 plus.... and both my parents already painting ard the house... i woke up and had instant noodles for lunch... Later i tried to read some readings but ended up dozed off... omg... when i woke up it was abt 6pm... poor jov had to try to find her way to the stadium at my house... but then she knows the way... so it wasnt difficult for her.. lol... sel also reached earlier than me. Jo reached first and found the track closed, so we went nus to jog. Dunno y but feel that the nus tracks seem smaller leh... hmmmm.... anyway i finished 11 rounds... yay!! previous one was 10. So next time i haf to aim for 12.... wah... sounds hard.
It was abt 8pm when we finished... not too late... and i brought both of them to my house's nearby ayer rajah market and recommended the fish piece soup to them... i think it is good but dunno whether they like ornot. cos i think after the run shouldnt eat those heaty or darn oily food such as mee goreng etc. the sugarcane drink pretty nice too!! hehe~
We had a looooon chat all the way to 11pm. wah.... so long sia. but we mainly talk abt sch work related stuff... haha~~ I am very very determined to wear a Masters gown and all of us having a grad photos together. jo say those graduated one year b4 me can still borrow from sch. yay! so all of us can take together!! let's make that as a motivation to work hard and to pass with flyng colours!! throw hats!!!
lol nice evening sia... i agree with jo~ that i dun mind more of such evenings. :) I hope the snow wolf lake gang were enjoying with themselves too! too bad i cant watch the musical concert though i wish to. :p
oh my almost 3am~ haha~weather is nice now... sky is red but i dun see any rain yet... nice to sleep and think.... but i wont do anymore thinking. :D hehe~~ hope i have a nice weekend this time....
Thursday, September 15, 2005
night
It's very late at night yet i dun wanna sleep. Recently i haf been hestitating to sleep... dunno y...
I remembered when i was young, i love to stand in front of windows to let the sunlight or moonlight and breeze to embrace me or carry me while i sing. I can feel a sense of power from the nature given to me then. It is so intangible, but yet i think i can feel it. I often looked into my tiny palms then, and clutched them tight. I feel that i haf this power; the power has given me a strong mental energy to live on with my life and blessed me with a clear path of wat i need or wat to do and decide for the path of my life. I haf always live my life without hestitation and brightness.
When some unfortunate incident actually closed me up and i hid myself in my own dark world, i created my own fantasy world and no one understands me for many many years... I dun care at all until one moment of time, finally i met frens who were so kind who shone me the light and pulled me away from my layers of barrier. Finally now, my last layer from my heart and soul no longer hides and do watever i can for ppl ard me. I think this is all i can do and left behind in this world.
I learnt from Buddhism that actually being too close to frens etc is bad/evil. I think wat it means is that the sufferings are attained from all these attachments etc. I agree... such attachments may bring sufferings... Indeed i haf let go of many things... and treating them as fleeting doves. I still help them whenever i can reach them but never to hold them back ever again, so i let them fly away. Seeing them healthy and free is my form of happiness. I know they belong not to me. As u can see in archi, i never stick on to anyone.... i juz join in whenever it comes...
I know I cannot handle sadness well.... this is my weakness. when i am upset, i may become irrational or unreasonable? i dunno, but if that's the case i think the avoiding of attachment may be a good way for me? I juz keep a few close frens and i'll be contented. However i am not successful in breaking away attachments as proven... there are still things which i wonder whether i shld let go... and hence i am still far from reaching a peaceful self within me.
Now when it's late at night, with the wind blowing and seeing the trees swaying while the moon is quiet.... I may still sing to myself at the windows. There is still a sense of serenity but in my eyes, they reflect some sort of sadness...y? wat is it? As though i haf a feeling that I am leaving this world soon. Holding on to every night, hateful to say goodbye. If that is the case, I haf done all i can... but still with many regrets. The first thing i wld say is sorry to my family that i failed to reach the final goal in my life.
I wonder if it runs in the family... but i think from the 'history' of my family i heard so far, it seems that the main female roles are really tough in the sense that they can bear hardships of life etc... I admire them, including my mom. seriously. Although I am not as noble as they are at this moment, but i can say that i carved out this life of mine with my blood and effort, enduring many challenges and hardships that had came to me in all sorts of form, whether in terms of work, people-to-people, academic etc. To me, I can see the future not as easy but I seem to resort to my fate of hardships... It seems i am destined to fight and endure hardships all the way, digging my own path with bare hands, yet i am determined to go on. This is my will; my perserverence. This is my life that truly belongs to me. I want to go on. If my life is a story, i will wan to read to the very end, as though there'll be a surprise at the back.
I juz hope i am given time to reach to the end. If i cant, i haf done all i could. Said all I could. Expressed all i could.
Wednesday, September 14, 2005
too tensed up from the recent 'nightmare'?
hehe, another short short post...
a funny incident happened this morning... i had a dream last night which continued til this morning... i dreamt that me or dunno who was still doing the 3D rendering of the model for our design.
Then halfway, when my mum shook me awake, and so my eyes opened and i sat upright and exclaimed at her in Mandarin- My very first sentence was, "Why are you still doing 3d modelling!!??" My mum was like "huh??" *blink blink* Den I realised i wasnt in the dream liao... i cant believe wat i wanna say in the dream become wat i blurt out in real life. well, she called me out of my dreams halfway wat...
Aiyo so funny lor.... so quickly, i said to her" oh, nothing nothing..."... HAHAHA.... wah lao..... my mum haf to suffer from all these funny things coming out from me. She was always amused and frustrated by all the sleep talking, or half-conscious talking everytime I am dead tired and have hard time getting up.
aint my life so animated? think can draw them into comics liao... lol
outburst
had a sudden good cry while tokking to few ppl online hours ago. actually i wasn't dwelling much on the matter until some words triggered me and i felt so hurting that i juz cant help it. well, its over. sorry if i scared some of my frens then... :p sorry. it's not anyone's fault la. aint blaming on anyone. yep.
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Tues? I dun seem to haf one
I feel like I juz woke up from some dream, or came out from some cave after several years....
anyway, yesterday after submission, we all left home while some maybe went to celebrate elsewhere. For me i choose to go home and it was raining quite abit then... it was abt 6 to 7pm.
I dunno wat's got into me but i seem to 'torture' myself by carrying alot of library book and stuff in on go... total 4 bags of stuff... the thing is that the bag with books on is damn heavy... actually once i got off the bus, i knew i cannot make it.... damn heavy!! and i had to walk all the way home.. darn.... and i cannot put down anywhere until i haf clean places to put them... somemore due to lack of sleep, my footings are not stable... and head is dizzy. So many times i lose my footings here and there... alot of ppl looking at me during the way... oh who cares... in the end i gritted my teeth and reached home... and my palm that carrying the bag of books almost bled. :p
Well, abt 9pm, I dozed off on sofa and dunno somehow i ended up on the bed and then woke up at 11 plus this morning.... lol... dead log sia... After i ate my lunch, I concussed on my bed!!again!! grrr.... by the time i woke up it's 5 plus pm!!!!!OMG.....All the things i listed down wat to do or pack for today is all gone down the drain... ok... i shall take the sleeping as my form of 'celebration'. :(
anyway... finally now i can get to tok to ppl on msn etc to catch up with stuff...
dunno y, i dun feel happy or anything.... something is still making me feel down.... wat is it?
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Cute face?
Hmm in the midst of piaing work... today last night cos tml submission le... T_T. If i'm not wrong, tonight is the 3rd night of stayover... dun haf proper meals.... but eating chocs etc.... cos someppl brought 2 big packets of them.... so i used them as energy bar.... now my throat feels heaty... think i didnt get to drink much water or fruits....
oh yea, i wanna blog this down in case i forgot... remember that time i dozed off while having a close group discussion with tutor? one of my fren said i slept with a cute face? yep.... then 2 nights ago, i slept in my of my laptop in studio.. think i hugging the ikea green round pillow.... the next day, one korean studiomate told me that she saw me sleeping. AND.... she said my face then was so cute.......... OKAAY.......... wat's with my face???? i haf no idea...... wat do they mean cute?? it can mean alot of things.... is it the ugly type? funny or weird looking? or adorable? or pretty?? i think it is my position la....how can be face?? if so, muz be the ugly and weird side?... hhaha.... how to sleep properly while sitting or lying chin down on table?
ok i better pack and go back school now..... cya all....cant wait for tues to come.... free day!! yay~
Thursday, September 08, 2005
When everyone's asleep...
These days been staying late in sch until the last bus came.... by the time i reached home, everyone's asleep... with mum sleeping at the sofa to wait for me to return.... With all meals at schools, staying til late in sch... I cant get to see my family often... not been able to tok to them too .... As for online ... everyone's asleep except for some souls with similar plight as me.... hmm... how to describe this life... feel abit poignant abt it.
anyway, 4-5 more days of hard work before i can take a breather. Hey Tues my free day mah... something to look forward to... though i would haf to miss my JC's Maf event on this coming sat... But i think after the submission haf to catch up with lotsa readings and other modules' projects and essays! ok... wonder how much rest can i get anyway.
ok... gotta go work into the late night. If u all see me online, feel free to greet me or juz say hi, I would eat u all up for that u know~~ haha~~
Monday, September 05, 2005
Hidden.
Work comes into play, and it will be for the rest of the week til 12th... wondering if there's some breathing space to make this period of time managable.
Juz woke up after an hour of sleep after i reached home... ya, i skipped dinner... otherwise i wont get time to sleep. Has been very heavy-headed or drowsy the whole day since sunday. The design is a rather texing thing. Somemore it is a grpwork now. Oh dear there's alot work to do, but i still feel like fainting/sleeping ...
Came out with some chinese writing with some compositional play... enjoy...
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装
着无动于衷。
装
着一切不懂。
带着微笑,说别人的故事,
如旁观者,谈别人的看法。
大家都在舞台上扮演自己的角色,
让自然界给予我们它精细的剧本。
每个人都是演员,自己当然也不例外。
鲜红的舞台帷幕,我选择了幕后角色。
虽然幕后小角色,视野的包容却无际。
因在帷幕的背后,我选择了当旁观者。
但谁也不明了,一个旁观者的世界。
旁观者的世界,是夹在两界的中心。
带着微笑说别人的故事,装着无动于衷。
笑中安慰着无所谓。
如旁观者谈别人的看法,装着一切不懂。
话中说着不是本意。
双手掩盖着心之窗,装着毫无半丝悲伤。
双手掩盖着眼之窗,装着毫无半点头绪。
装
得很累。
装
得很伤。
一年后的这一天,在心外的天空,
是否天依然蓝,是否云依然白。
是否我还能看见白鹤飞翔,是否田上还是依旧长满绿草。
帷幕把这世界分了两半,
它的背后是我安静的田地,没人看得见。
在它的背后,别人的世界又是什么?
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sorry, it is yet another sad piece of writing.
Sunday, September 04, 2005
A nice sat night
Sat began with project discussion in sch and later in the afternoon we went to an archi fren's house for her bdae celebration. The food was good~ and i planned to make it both my lunch and dinner... ate quite abit hehe...cake too! Suddenly received ed's sms for mj at night, later which became stayover...wah his house again, so bu hao yi si.
Once i reached home in the evening, i rushed to pack stuff and brought some work over. In the end all of us late. Me and jov were actually on the same train! and ya, we were the earlier ones. Ed came and after a while, sel came, den we all set off to his house. I think all of us already know how to go to his house le, so many times liao. Erm, maybe I am still not very sure or confident yet... I dun really notice routes, only follow ppl... But i think if u throw me in the area, maybe I can still find my way there ... hehe~
We played mj for some time before wk came to join us... and wk disturbed me!! haha, making me very 'luan' in my game. lol~ but taught me some stuff though. And ed was analysing how my brain function in this game!!! aiyo..... anyway, after 1 round of 4 winds, it was abt 12 or 12 plus. Wk went home while i went to bathe. Later all of us watched the Jap movie "Crying out love in the centre of the world" except jo doing work instead. It was a rather touching and tear-moving show... After that all of us slept while sel went to do his work. He left early in the morn ... while me and jov woke up at 9.30 and we did some work and chit chat all the way til 12 noon when ed finally woke up... We watched tv and chit chat all the way until his dad bought some noodles for us to eat... so bu hao yi si~~~~~~ we chit chat again... gossipped etc til 2 plus and all 3 of us bid farewell to his dad. How i wish time can stop at that time.... So ed went to computer exhibition with his fren while the 2 of us went home to work. But now i think Jov is sleeping~~ didnt see her online...
Ok, haf to pia work liao!!! Well at least i feel so much happier since I had a nice weekend!! As my ex-tutor said, we muz learn to let our hair down at times and who knows u get inspirations for ur design more or get more productive!! hehe~~ Working time!!
Thanks again, ed, for inviting us to ur house~
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Hungry & Tired!
darn... i didnt eat lunch and dinner again... omg..... i heard from news tt people who do not eat enuff fruits and veggies each day will haf their brain aging fast.... oh dear~~~ *gulp*
This afternoon i almost get killed on the road. Was walking to my usp block to haf lessons... and had to cross this stretch of road. i juz walk on it and across while alot of cars coming. luckily the van stopped or slowed down for me. i forgot this is not a zebra crossing... i snapped awake when the van wanna stop to let me pass... so i quickly stopped walking too... was a few steps from the edge liao lor.... haiz.... first time like tt..... wat's happening to me...
deadlines coming and more projs coming. sian... how am i suppose to handle them... will be stuck in studio most of the time... help!! i feel like i'm in a jail and need ppl to visit me and send me food... lol! kidding la....
One more big worry... I dun understand my USP module classes!! It's Foundations of engineering but i dunno what is the tutor toking... i cannot catch up.... den one part got normalised distribution curve etc etc.... oh man, i threw my maths away liao.... TIAN AR!!! I am in deep trouble.... have to design a boat made of aluminium sheets that can hold as many marbles as possible on water... i dunno how! who can help me in this??