Name : Juliana S.Y. Chan
Known as : North Swallow / Hoku Tsubameko. Currently renamed to NS Chan Studio
Occupation:
- Current: Architect
- Others: Freelance graphics designer and Illustrator
Societies:
- Alumni of NUS Students' Comics and Animation Society
- Artists Society of Singapore (ASOS)- Secretary
[Profile in ASOS can be view
here.]
Hobbies:
- Painting
- Drawing
[More Introduction can be viewed at my Official Website
here.]
: Achievements :
Year 2015
- Pencil Drawing “Young Memories” featured in American art magazine, “Strokes of Genius 8”. Oil Painting “Simple. Happiness” exhibited at “SG50 National Day Calligraphy and Painting Exhibition 2015”, organized by Ngee Ann Cultural Centre Ngee Ann Kongsi. Oil Painting “Sri Mariamman Temple in Chinatown, Singapore” selected for “Arising Star” FASS Artists Grand Art SG50 Exhibition, organized by the Federation of Art Societies (Singapore). Oil Paintings "Her Family" and "Still Life No.3 - Together with Joy" selected for "Blossom and Flourish" Singapore National Women's Art Exhibition 2015 (in conjunction with the celebration of SG50), organized by the Federation of Art Societies (Singapore).
Year 2014
- Pencil Drawing “Honesty of Time” featured in American art magazine, “Strokes of Genius 7”.
Year 2012
- Assistant Treasurer of Artists Society of Singapore. Works featured in art publication of Artists Society of Singapore.
Year 2010
- 2nd Prize Winner for Open Character Design Digital Category in Extravaganza - Graphite 2010 competition. Exhibition and Prize Ceremony held with Anime Festival Asia 2010 at Suntec Hall, 14 Nov.
Year 2009
- 2nd Prize Winner for Open Character Design Digital Category in Extravaganza - Graphite 2009 competition. Exhibition and Prize Ceremony held with Anime Festival Asia 09 at Suntec Hall, 21 Nov.
- Thesis project selected for City Exhibition (NUS Architecture Graduation Exhibition- "How does your garden grow?") held at Iluma Urban Entertainment Centre, 13 Jun.
Year 2008
- 2nd Prize Winner for Open Character Design Digital Category in Graphite 2008 competition. Exhibition and Prize Ceremony held with Anime Festival Asia 08 at Suntec Hall, 22 Nov.
- Exhibited individual installation for team exhibition “Site, Situation, Spectator” collaborated among Department of Architecture, University Scholar Programme and NUS Museum. Installation is exhibited in NUS Museum.
Year 2006
- Selected for Student’s Exchange Programme (SEP) to Lund, Sweden.
- Design Projects (Year 3 semester 1 and semester 2) selected for Department exhibition.
Year 2003-4
- Head of Manga Sub-Committee in NUS Students’ Comics and Animation Society.
- Pioneer as Head of 2004 “Graphite” Organising Committee to organise first TERTIARY manga drawing competition for 3 universities: NUS, NTU and SMU.
- Design Project (Year 1 semester 2) selected for Department exhibition.
Year 2001-2
- Assistant Secretary and Head of Publicity of Hwa Chong Junior College Chinese Orchestra (HCCO).
- Won gold medal in team competition (HCCO) in Singapore Youth Festival (SYF) 2001.
- Performed duet in HCCO concert at Victoria Concert Hall 2002.
- Awarded First in comic illustration for competition organised by HCJC’s Comics Club 2002.
Year 1997-2000
- Awarded Best in Art Elective Programme (AEP) subject in 1997, 1998 and 2000.
- GCE O’ Levels: 9 distinctions, includes Higher Art Distinction in AEP, 1997-2000.
- Selected by school NYGH and Ministry of Education to represent Singapore in 1999 to Atlanta, Georgia, USA for overseas summer programme in Atlanta College of Fine Arts.
- 3rd prize winner in Singapore Story – Youth Edition Art competition organised by National Youth Council in 1998.
- Merit Prize winner in Care-for-Nature Spot-Art competition at Sungei Buloh Nature Park in 1998.
Year 1996
- Awarded 2nd position for Lions International Peace Poster Contest in Southeast Asia.
: Career History :
Associate at DP Architects, 2014-Current
Architectural Executive at DP Architects, 2012-2014
Architectural Assistant at DP Architects, 2009-2012
Freelance Graphics Designer, 2008-2011
Internship at K2LD Architects, 2007-2008
- Completed interior project for renovation of apartment at Hillington Green, Singapore.
- Completed interior project for creation of wedding banquet showroom at G-Hotel, Penang.
Internship at DP Architects Pte Ltd, 2006
- Participated in A&A works for Saint Andrew’s Cathedral, Singapore.
Internship at The Design Studio of Colin K. Okashimo and Associates, 2005
- Model-making
Freelance Graphics Designer, 2004 - Current
- T-shirt design for NUS Students’ Comics and Animation Society.
- 2 Website Interface designs for NUS Students’ Comics and Animation Society, working with programmer.
- Poster Design for Graphite 2005 Competition.
- Costume designs for University Scholar Programme Rag Day 2004.
- Banner and nametag design for 3rd Great Asian Streets Symposium held in NUS, Department of Architecture.
- Logo and T-shirt design for Hall XI, FOC 2004 “Ignixion”, in Nanyang Technological University.
Multimedia Artist (contract-based), and Graphics Designer (freelance) at AsknLearn.com Pte Ltd, 2003-2004
- Participated in website competition.
- Developed illustrations and digital graphics for website layout or interface design, character design, stories illustrations, logos and icons, brochures, product covers, banners, posters, and simple computer-based animations.
- Participated in computer animated e-Learning softwares for educational uses.
: Qualifications/Education :
- Registered Architect - Qualified Person (QP) from 2012 - current.
- University Scholar's Programme, NUS, Singapore, 2009.
- Master Degree in Architecture, NUS, Singapore, 2009.
- Bachelor (Honours) Degree in Architecture, NUS, Singapore, 2003-2007.
Sunday, January 23, 2005
Heartless
The day can turn from a happy one to a sad one within half an hour... at least that happened to me yesterday. I had wished so badly that after all the depression and sadness i got last sem, this sem would be a happy one. But no..... it didnt last....
You know that I hate to be called a person full of excuses or a heartless person cos that is maligning me. And it's not fair and it means that the person doesnt know me at all. Last time when some frens say I like/always giving excuses, I was damn upset. Now the worse is being called a heartless person by my very own family member. And this is the 2nd time. 1st time was last sem... juz becos of little things.
If I am heartless, I would haf waste their money given for my studies by not putting effort in my studies;
If I am heartless, why should I get myself so worn out in sch and at work;
If I am heartless, why I strain on my mental and physical health rushing here and there to get things done;
If I am heartless, why am I so scared to spend on luxurious food or buy little luxurious foods;
If I am heartless, why do I always choose to eat desserts and not the main courses;
If I am heartless, why don't I spend money on useless stuff;
If I am heartless, why every pray I made I muz include good health for my family;
If I am heartless, why do I bother to make jokes at home;
If I am heartless, I would be staying in studio everyday as though I have no family.
I am a human, and I agree as a human, I also get tempted by things or have certain desires and sometimes becos of peer pressure. Humans are not saints.
However, it seems tt whatever I do, I am deemed heartless, or seemed heartless:
I am heartless, becos I always work late and use alot of electricity;
I am heartless, becos of the lights that people in my house cant sleep well;
I am heartless, becos I took up alot of places at home to put my stuff;
I am heartless, becos I wan face which oso will give family face;
I am heartless, becos I wanna reward my frens in events at the expense of home matters;
I am heartless, becos I wanna have a memorable life-experience in overseas studying which is expensive;
Yes I am the most heartless person in the world. I agree I do haf wrong judgements at times but it is based on some desires I wan that I am deemed heartless. Do I deserve that? And people forget abt the other things that I do for them. It is like when a person did something bad, others will always see the bad point and forget the good one.
I think our communication gap is getting bigger and bigger, and I feel like losing hope. Last sem when this word was given to me, it already broke my heart and it never heals. Some words said cannot be taken back. That time I even feel like camping in sch forever or at least most of the times, as though I 'fly away from home' aka 离家出走. Thankfully to my sis's reminding me of the word, I remembered that 'escape from home' promise and I am going to camp in studio more this sem. At least I won't be a burden to them. And I wont take up their space, I won't waste their electricity.
I feel that I am a burden to my family.... my studies are very expensive. The resources like books, computer stuff etc added on to it gave more burden. To them, it seems ' I wan this and I wan that', like wat my sis say, I'm like a Princess living in big house. If I am, why didnt I complain about the food being simple at home? and so on. I worked so hard for who? Myself alone? And family? Why? To give them better life, better fame, better face, achievements, pride, relief, meaningfulness. When people say ur frens seem closer than ur family are, it is really true at times. But I know in the end family shld be the one supporting u til the end. But I can see that they hurt me so much before I can reach the end. The gap has become too wide. They no longer understand me.
All right, since like that, I will try to stop all temptations and desires I have. So that I wont be a burden.
No more desserts; Try to eat as little or minimum as possible; Try to stay in sch more to save electrical bills; No more going out often; etc
Maybe this way I can save enuff to pay for my own masters course overseas.... or maybe not. Den I shall work non stop, and spend in almost nothing. No more celebration of any sort. Nothing, I shall have nothing. I should be complacent with what I have. Nothing else at all.
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This evening I went to this Baptist Church in Novena with some archi frens cos yuxun invited to go and hear the concert.... singing basically. When I hear and hear, tears juz fell but I didnt let anyone see. So stupid and embarrassing. Think I can join acting liao. So good at crying for wat. Like someone said, crying also no one will pity me, no use one, who cares.
The priest speaks in Mandarin, unlike any other priests in the typical churches. Actually, me and the archi ppl spent the time looking at the building/inside the room for architectural features to note. haha.... but the songs are nice lar.. The violinist was the best. Next one was the flutist. Now yx gave each of us the music CD.... anyone wan to listen to it?
During the whole concert, they always make us stand alot. stand and sit, den stand again etc. My left side of my back was hurting me alot. This is the 2nd time since I had the spine injury. So this standing and sitting abit the killing me haha~~
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After the concert ended, lav went home, left me, brenda, minghui and kexiang. We went to McCafe to grab food, except me. Even though the prices are reasonable and the cheesecakes are super nice and delicious looking, no I never eat. Wat for eat. They are extra food. Why spend on excess food. Why spend on desires. The instant noodles I haf for dinner at home should be enuff. Ok, so I didnt buy and convinced myself not to buy. Not bad.
Reached home, I bathed immediately. I ate up the remaining oreo biscuits. Suddenly I realise one thing. Now I understand why I starve myself last time. Some people pierce themselves or cut themselves to relieve stress etc. For me, I am not that extreme. I starve myself.
Haha... but then since I always eat junk food, I believe I didnt starve myself afterall. Or at times i really did....
Anyway, my first step to humble life. And to show them that I am not wat heartless princess thingy that they think I am. I really wan to make my mark in career so I wont be a burden to them in future. Really, if I really wan to go overseas, I shld really save as much as possible from now and stop thinking of spending money in any form unless really need to. At least that will put them at ease.
Anyway alot of things I sacrifices I made no one sees. When once a while I pointed out something I wan to do, they sees it as too much. To them I am really a burden. Think u cant deny. I juz cannot accept ppl maligning me... hurt me too much... a sour feeling left behind... disappointed, speechless, lose hope. To me, they anyhow use this word 'heartless' on me, they didnt realise it is hurting me instead. To me, they are the ones heartless.
if they dun see wat u did for them, make them see
if they dun understand how u think, tell them
if they dun see eye to eye wif u, convince them
communication is impt... tok to them... let them understand u... well this is a start...
and i think at our age, frenz do know us better den our families... at least for me thatz true...
i'm sure they'll support u once they know that u are trying to do this for them.... dun let this get u down... u still have a long road ahead of u~~ do something more to get them to support ur cause??
like sit down over dinner and tok over it?? tell them that itz not juz for urself... dat u studying so hard is also for them?? the inconvenience caused is not wat u wished for?? not going home is not wat u want?? i'm sure ur parents would rather see u home rather den having u camp in the studio all the time...
and dun starve urself when u're stressed... or any other situation also cannot... if u do fall ill u'll really become a burden to them, wun u?? take care of urself b4 u can take care of others and ur career~~
there are times in this world, that no one is in the wrong... the only thing that is causing the unhappiness is juz a simple word: misunderstanding... cos they dun understand wat u're doing... and they take it in their own perspective... so they are not really heartless... juz that they dun see things the way u see them~~
Like you said, family will be more important than friends eventually. Friends can seem to understand you better now, but blood relations are forever.. Perhaps there is a misunderstanding between your family members? Maybe your sis never express herself properly and what she said isn't what she really means?
I think most of us at this age has the tendancy to want to be with friends more than family at times. But conflicts arise probably because friends are not responsible to one another the way family is. There are greater expectations, greater demands and greater pressure..
Still, that's no reason to torture yourself. Your efforts are not being appreciated, so just live as you want to.
By the way, next time you intend to starve.. let me know. Then I have some form of schedule to follow for dieting. =P
Arhya, second time on the blog and first time reading your entry I get a full blast of aggression haha. Well, I guess that's what blogs are for.
Anyways, no human is heartless. At all times I take family rumblings for disguised care and concern la afterall if they really care not then they wnt bother to say soooo much just to sink the point in. Usually you dont get the point la cos its probably pointless haha but whats there is perhaps the lil' hidden concern that need you to whole-heartedly find. Maybe it will not be obvious now but it will one day so for now, just mumble "What the Hell" and move on.
Hm now that explains why your eyes were red haha was too polite to ask why. Was assuming it was the back pain or boredom. Actually I would think boredom is more for me la haha didnt think the rest of you were that bored since I think only I didnt understand 3/4 of what was being said and sang. Sigh.
Hahaha join the club man.
yo everyone~~~
Thanks for all the concern... After Jo counselling me thw whole night yesterday, I did make a decision to say out... Thanks jov~~ Thanks everyone...
But dunno why maybe becos I myself now take things more seriously, so each time a conflict will juz pierce straight into me lar.... From how much they can hurt me, I know how much I depend on them. :)
Even good intentions can get misunderstood by poor expressions. No matter how much some comments hurt, always bear in mind that they don't mean what they say. Keep thinking positive and its going to go a long way towards keeping sanity in an insane world.